Getting Back To Me

I have seemed to lose touch/track of reality over the past two and a half months. I had forgotten what makes me smile and chuckle and how to be random and feel free. I had forgotten what gives me life and the very reason I get out of bed everyday and work as hard as I do. I had lost my passion, my drive, my very reason for being me. I lost me. How do you forget how to live? I mean, really live. I had forgotten the very reason I breathe. I didn't realize it for the past eight and a half months, I was slowly losing me until it I was completely out of control. I lost my "mojo" and my very being and I didn't even know it. Most people don't have the opportunity to lose themselves like I did. I do not have any kids to live ve no significant other, I don't have any responsibilities other than myself. Even though I don't have the responsibility of anyone else, you would think that I would be able to control me, but nope, I lost it. I'm slowly getting back to me, day by day. It's much harder than it sounds and I know it sounds ABSOLUTELY ridiculous, but it's possible. I'm learning how to please myself. I'm learning what it means to live for myself and find whatever that "it" is that I may need to keep pushing, without constant negotiations and nudges. I'm learning how to just do it. I said all of this to say to you, where ever you are and who ever you may be. Hold on to all of yourself that you have. Sometimes, we tend to get lost in relationships, marriages, friends, career ambitions, and just plain old life. Don't let yourself be taken in this constant whirl spin we call life and forget the very reason you do the things you do. In my young (very very young) life, I managed to so I can only imagine what anyone else could be going through. Stay true to yourself, to your dreams. Find the very thing that makes you tick and chase it like it's a wild horse and you desperately need it to ride through the wind. DON'T EVER let your dream die because it is what makes you who you are. You wouldn't be you without that extra zest and spice you gather from wanting something just for you. I'm definitely getting back to me, so please don't EVER lose you because there is no guarantee you can get it back.