When you think about happiness, what's the first thing that comes to mind? I've been going through this over and over again in my mind and decided to ask others for their insight on this subject (friends, family members, co-workers, associates, etc.). Some Answers I received were family, significant others, their children, money, God, marijuana, love, and peace. There were deeper responses also. Abundance of every opportunity available in life (financial, physical, spiritual, mentally, etc.). The peace of the mind in absolutely nothing. Being free and able to adapt to any environment without restraints. Finally, the simplicity of success and comfort of accomplishments.
When I turned the question around to myself, surprisingly I wasn't quite sure how to answer. Crazy right? After all of these amazing answers, I couldn't and almost still can't place my happiness in words. There are no words for my happiness. Interesting enough, I've decided to explore the concept of happiness a bit more. Webster states that happiness is defined as a state of well-being and contentment; a pleasurable satisfaction.
When I think of my own happiness I don't want to think of or even consider any of the superficial materialistic things that could easily perish. I want my happiness to be closer to my soul, way past my heart. So, what's my niche? I mean, I enjoy plenty of things but what makes me tick? In my whole life, my happiness has been determined and co-dependent on someone else. I have not EVER been content with being alone. I didn't have a moment to just be alone, enjoy myself and the workings of my inner thoughts, and understand my flaws while improving for the better of me. That is until now.
Descriptively explaining my approach on happiness, I can only imagine a romance with God. My heart is on a daily yearn for the best of love and to give it. My need for it is an understatement. I want to be in that scene in the movies where that girl is outside under the raindrops waiting for her "him" to run into her, pick her up and swing her around in his arms while holding her so tightly as if he was looking for her his entire life. Yes, the classic well put together undeniable touch from "him" that enters your fingers and ends through your soul.
I want my happiness to consist of being comfortable in my own skin. If it had a look, I could picture flowing hair, classic blue jeans, and a tank top while being completely free of makeup with a touch of lip balm. Yes, my happiness would be comfortable in being in its own skin. It would be simple and pure. Unfortunately so, my happiness is being chased, therefore it is not ready to be defined. It cannot be understood because, honestly, my simplistic nature of my inner workings is to complex for the average person to understand my most synthetic facade.
At least I have the concept together though right?
I enjoyed reading your blog entry on happiness. It made me think about what happiness is to me. Like you my happiness has always been dependent on someone else. I have had a few moments where I was happy in my own skin, but it usually slipped away when someone came into the picture.
ReplyDeleteIm sure you will have the true happiness you desire and I will be just as happy for you. You are so blessed to have the ability to open yourself up already that it shouldn't be difficult to continue on and find your true happiness!
I don't believe people are ever "happy" in the traditional meaning of the word. The closest a person can come to being "happy" is having the good outweigh the bad in their life.
ReplyDeleteMy way of handling it would be to first define what 'happiness' is to YOU (since there is no standard consensus on what it means) and then seek those things.
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